{Journal Entry}
I’ve been reflecting on why my work started to feel burdensome...
There are many aspects to the story of dissolving the womb school and redirecting my focus to be more inclusive of all that I offer. While I can’t delve into all the details here, what’s vivid for me right now is how I became burnt out on the psychological dimension of healing work. Often, when there’s a lack of psychological wellness, emotional intelligence, or an understanding of how one’s beliefs and perceptions shape experiences, it gets projected onto the person holding space for them—me.
During the death initiation, I faced projection from both chosen and biological family members, experiencing psychic and verbal attacks directed at me. This mirrored patterns I encountered in my work.
I’m someone who reflects on my role in situations, and after working with tens of thousands of clients worldwide, I’ve realized this aspect isn’t mine to carry. When I provide clear reflection and encounter psychological unwellness, the reluctance to face one’s inner issues gets projected onto me.
While the womb will always be integral to my work, I’ve recognized that I don’t want people approaching me solely through their pain. When individuals resist doing their inner work, I end up bearing the weight of what they avoid addressing within themselves.
As I shift my focus and embrace a new approach to sharing, I aspire to attract those genuinely eager to explore their lived experiences with gentleness, compassion, and an open heart.