Death Initiation cont.
Thank you all so much for the many emails, FB & IG messages, and comments on my last love note.
The death initiation apprenticeship really took it out of me. The loss of the long-time client was only a tiny part of the challenge I walked through over the last nine months.
I really learned so much about tending to the afterlife of someone that died by suicide. Through this process, there has been an exponential amount of weirdsies from her families related to money leading to projection.
Dealing with projection isn't new to me as a 5/1 in Human Design and the intensity of this situation and the amount of projection directed my way was deeply dysregulating.
Placing the school on the altar has been a beautiful experience, what I was shown is that the school is all good, what isn't is ME. I was shown how I need to rewire my brain around selling/launching and how I need to alchemize the emotions and feelings related to all of that.
I am not designed to do things the way other people do. Meaning, I need to find my own way of doing things and attune to my own heart and inspiration and go from there.
What I am doing now is allowing myself to settle into my own inner resource spending lots of time in nature so I can attune to the subtle art of listening to my inner wisdom to see how I want to share (sell) moving forward.
I am actually doing really well, I am also deeply exhausted by humanity, and by the systems we have in place, all of that is true...
And I am also beyond grateful for my home, my community, this precious Earth, my familiars (helping spirits) and so much more...
And I am freaking exhausted...
Two opposing truths can live simultaneously.
A few of you wondered what I meant by placing things on the altar. What I mean by that is setting whatever is weighing heavy on your mind your heart on the sacred metaphorical altar, so it can rest in the periphery, so you can receive the messages that come when you soften your gaze... Which means... Softening the need to figure it out.
Is there anything weighing heavy on your mind or heart that you've been trying to figure your way through that could be placed on the metaphorical altar?
Share below!
With Love, Naomi Love
P.S. I'll be speaking more to the comments and messages that I received in the coming weeks. In the meantime just know that I see you, I hear you, I feel you, and you are not alone.
