You Have Been Carrying It Alone for Long Enough
My walkabout began in Portugal.
I arrived there shattered, my nervous system exhausted. Portugal was safe and gentle and kind. I was able to arrive slowly into myself and feel all the emotions that had been waiting to be met.
Each country I visited shared something special with me. Morocco was the second of nine.
It asked me to incarnate. I had been living in the clouds on the volcano Haleakalā while tending the death initiation, leaving me in a liminal state.
The culture, the heat, the surroundings forced me into my flesh and bones, and I needed tending to stay there, so I found a local hammam.
I laid on a warm marble slab in a beautiful marble round room, a Muslim woman began tending to my body. Around me women were caring for each other, giving and receiving with one another. I could only receive this from my own limited perspective, knowing I was a guest in a world far deeper than my understanding.
I wept with the beauty and recognition of the woman being tended to.
There is one thing I know about you. You have been carrying stories, memories and experiences in your body that you have never spoken out loud.
The morning after pill, the abortion, the miscarriage, the diagnosis you keep to yourself, the symptoms, pain you carry alone, the times you said yes when your body was saying no or when someone else made that decision for you.
You have been carrying it alone for long enough.
Western culture has been separating us from our communities for a long time, and COVID deepened that. You know what it feels like to be in a room full of women and still feel alone. The judgment you have carried toward yourself, you have learned to turn on the women around you.
The insecurity that lives between us has quietly kept you from the very things you have been longing for.
This is an opportunity to come together in vulnerability with heart, to walk the priestess path in recognition of one another, to tend to the woman together.
If you are ready to stop carrying it alone, there is a path waiting for you. You can learn more about Holy Grail ☾☽ A Return to Love and the Priestess Path.
